I get my showers at night. So i woke up this morning and started to wash my face and just started crying. My sister was in the bathroom doing her hair..so she came over and asked what was wrong and i just cryed more. I'm so ugly. My friends and family tell me all the time that i'm beautiful, and i'm so grateful..but i just want someone to tell me that isn't supposed to. Someone i don't even know, some stranger. Because, friends and family are supposed to do that. They're supposed to tell you how pretty u r. Strangers aren't. I want someone to actually think i am pretty..i don't want them to say it because they have to. Another thing, no guy has ever told me i'm pretty. I mean..my dad has, of coure..but no one else. I just feel so ugly, and so gross, and so unattractive...and now i see why things go the way they do for me. i know that being low in confidence isn't attractive, but i'm usually not like this. i'm usually not so sad, or so caught up in what i look like. I know i'm not perfect, or even close to it..I know I have a lot of flaws...but for some reason now i can sit and make a list of everything wrong with me..and it's a pretty long list too. I just want to be normal. I just want to be loved. Bye.