Robert.... Mixed feelings? Try no feelings. Well... not exactly. There are feelings, but I just don't know what I'm feeling. If that makes any sense whatsoever. Probably not. But all I know is something is seriously ripping me apart and I would give anything to know what it was. It's funny when people ask if you're okay, and you honeslty don't know what to tell them. If I told the truth, and said I didn't know if I was okay, they'd assume something was wrong. But truthfully, I wish I knew. I just feel like I can't be me anymore. Because I don't know what me is? I don't know anything at all. Maybe my problem is lack of sleep. I guess writing in my journal instead of doing homework is a bad choice. I'll get on that. P.S. Kief....thanks for makin me smile today...I needed it. Luv you for that!! *linds