"I find it kind of funny And I find it kinda sad That my dreams in which I'm dying Are the best I've ever had" How will you know I'm hurting If you cannot see my pain? I wear it on my body To tell what words cannot explain I stand in the hot shower as water runs down my arm seems like something so innocent can't cause you any harm but as I watch it closer the drops soon turn to red and soon I'm lying in the tub my eyes are blank and dead but my heart continues beating as the blood pours from my wrist Never, in my wildest dreams did I think it would end like this the water keeps on running as I lay there all alone I play back a conversation I had earlier on the phone You said you saw me looking sad You said you thought you'd call Just to see how I was doing How I was handling it all I lied and said that I was fine (But I swear I was going nuts) When you asked if I was sure My eyes wandered to my cuts I reassured you I was alright And then I said good bye I never thought it would be the last But I began to cry what we had was special I should have never let it go But now, for good, it's over And my wrist is all I have to show To show the pain that I went thru emotions running dry Cause I think I'm still in love with you I realize as I die My mind comes back to the shower some one's banging on the door I roll myself out of the tub onto the bathroom floor He screams "Get out! You've been in there Plenty long enough!" If only he knew those little things were what made my life so rough You tried to talk to me and tell me everything would be okay But you never knew for sure It was just something you thought you'd say So now I'm here, on the floor Thinking thoughts of you Thinking of how much life's a bitch and all the shit it's put me through I never really wanted to die an early death But out of all my choices it was the only one left I just wanted things to change for me to be something better than now but I never knew when or where what, or even how you say you truly cared for me looks like you were the only one but it doesn't even matter because now my life is done. *linds