you know what, screw apprehension and doubt. i decided a while ago that i wasn't gonna try out for Dorothy, because I didn't think that I had a chance and I didn't want to get my hopes up. But I've realized that if I never take any risks, than I'm never gonna have anything happen. So, I'm going for it. Whatever. No more excuses, no more putting myself down. I'm gonna think positive. And sure, i'll be disappointed if I don't get it but hey, that's part of life. i'll deal with it. so yeah.