Things got really bad last night. My parents are totally insane and i hate it. i almost went back to some old habits but i remembered how much worse that made things last time, so i just started to think. What would happen if i died right now? Like, how would people react? Would it make any diference in the world? Would i be missed? There's so many things i would want to say before i go. So many things i'd want to do. Things i'd want to tell certain people in my life. But then again, maybe there we're things they would wnat to tell me. What if all of a sudden i was diagnosed with cancer, and had a week to live? What would I do with those last precious days i had? I don't rightly know. I don't know. I think I'm going crazy. Just ignore me.