ugh. James needs to be back here NOW. i can't stand this. being so far away from him is like torture, it's ridiculous. i don't understand how i can feel so strongly for him already. but i guess the same thing happened with kiefer so i shouldn't be suprised. i fall fast and hard and i can't let go, that's just how i am. he's so good to me. everything is just so much easier with him. we hardly EVER fight, and when we do, it's not really a fight, it's more of one of us not letting the other do something nice for us. we're both total hopeless romantics, so we come up with random sweet things to do all the time and then we feel bad that the other one spent so much time/moneyt on us. it's funny that we only "fight" about good things. it's a refreshing change. peter and i are friends again. weird, i know, since i completely hated him. but i've decided to judge people for what they are doing NOW instead of on things that happened in the past. so we're buddies. same with me and jordi. sure, i haven't forgotten all the fucked up things that happened, but we've both moved past it; that part of my life is way over so there's no need to dwell, right? right. George, please.