i just wanted us to be friends again is all. you were a big part of my life and having you gone is wierd. i just want us to be able to talk, be in the same room or walk by without purposefully looking down, shit like that. i know the card was brutal, but i didn't know if you would care, so i didn't want to be vulnerable and make it seem like i did. stupid, but whatever. i'm glad you like it, and eventhough i know some things won't change, i feel better now.