ALrighty, yesterday was auditions for Nightmare Before Christmas! Call backs are tomorrow. Will I make it? Most likely not. But did I have fun trying? Of course. There's gotta be more to life than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me. So the boy situation ain't improved much. Robert saw me like 3 times today and didn't say hi. :( But then again niether did I...so does that make me a hypocrit? He did however grab my arm as he passed me. He loked really serious tho. Oh well. Love does some fuked up things to the mind. And yes, Kiefer, I know we talked and agreed on the whole "love" thing: about it being premature at this age. But really, my view has changed. Love can be felt at any age, we just might not be mature enough to handle it yet. That's the difference. When you're older, your life is already on it's way (usually) and so a relationship is bound to last longer because it's more serious. But just because you know your not gonna get married when you're going out with some one in high school, that doesn't neccesarily men you don't love that person, not by any means. So sorry Kief, but I'm gonna disagree with you on that one now. Charlotte's poem - I dunno. I liked it. Maybe cause I can relate to it so much?? Whatever. "Daddy" always told me I deserved so many great things And now I'm standing here before you And I feel my heart slowly breaking I can't breathe I'm choking on air I never thought it'd come down to this - You telling me you don't care I never imagined the other possibility - You not wanting me back Seeing the truth - Something I lack Your eyes pierce me Like you've stuck a dagger through my heart And we're growing older with each minute You're tearing me apart I'm on the floor in pieces Do you see me? I'm reaching out to you My whole world has just come crashing through I crumble to ashes As I meet my grave To you, my heart & soul I gave Watch me die in front of you Watch me break in two Watch me Watch me You've got me I'm wrapped around your finger Take pity on me See me for what I am --- Weak I've been used & abused, Beaten & bruised All because I fell for you Am I alone? Even when I'm crowded by my closest friends My life - it never ends My pain - it unbends Right in front of you Watch me cry Watch me cry Watch me Watch me Can't you see I'm ready to die? Can't you see what you're doing to me? You're killing me slowly You're stringing me out - I'm swimming deep in a pool of doubt Pry me away from what I love most - You Pry me away from what hurts me the most - You Heal me - Heal me - Watch me drown Watch me drown Watch me Watch me... ~C.M.(Charlotte Milligan) OK, I'm out. *linds