why can't things just be simple? what is with the constant barrage of difficulty after complication after misunderstanding. Why? things are getting out of hand and i feel like i'm slowly being tugged down to the depths of everything. but i'm fighting to break the surface. decisions had to be made, but did i make the right ones? i guess we'll find out soon enough. i never felt such a twisting in my heart this way. i just want it to be easy, but anything i come up with has drawbacks. its confusing shit.