Yes, i haven't written in a while. Been busy this week. Should be busy now, but i just can't study anymore and i was supposed to work on my project for Friday with my dad's help... but he's stuck at work thingy so i'm not... and i just feel like resting... i've got an exam tomorrow... resting is important and i've got too much on my mind. I wish i was good at something. I'm sick of seeing people be good at something, known for something and i just sit here clueless. People tell me i'm good at this or that... but let's face it... i don't exceed in anything. =/ It sucks. Some of my online friends are getting on my nerves a bit. Nothing big just little things here and there... *shrugs* Christmas will be fun... yeah i'm really looking forward to it. I know who my secret santa is... it's my cousin Tati who lives in New York. She hasn't attended our family Christmas in years... And i've seen her like 3 times over the past 8 years. But all times were nice, and one particular time was great. We were in Brazil and she was there too and she actually made the effort to come and hang out with me, my brother, my sister and my little cousin. Which is more than any of my other cousins have done. Well most of them anyway =/. I wish i was really close to all my cousins... i might even be remotly close to a few of them if we lived in the same country... but living in different continents i don't think helps one bit. I'm excited to see Mariana, my little cousin, though =D She's the best. Oh yeah, there's some random picture of me up there. I'm sick of being blah. I wish i were pretty =( I just want natural beauty... then again, who doesn't. lol My Italian exam was alright i think... my Tecniques of Jornalism exam tomorrow however... we'll have to wait and see! It might go ok ... especially as sounds like it'll be easy to cheat =P But i think i actually know a few stuff anyway. Oh i'm annoyed... my first year class that i'm re-taking... we took an exam ages ago... and then we switched teachers... and aparently they got their exams back... but during some other class or something... so i don't have mine!! grrr I never see that other teacher... so now i don't know when -IF- I'll get my exam. *sigh* sucks. I need to know, especially as i expect to not have failed... and i can't have failed cause this next exam i probably will =/ Oh and there's more about that class... after this teacher leaves next week... there's a new teacher... and by the name i think its one of the teacher's that was there during my oral in the summer :'( The oral i completly embarassed myself... urgh... Don't want that. Oh well. whatever... Yes... i believe i'm done reading this... next week when all this hecticness is done i need to look and contact some more american universities. Damn people, only one replied me... and was a sucky one basicly the university is too expensive and i probably couldn't get a scholarship cause they're based on my current grades... and well... those suck... especially when transfered to American version =/ Sucks... cause in highschool i even had good grades :'( Oh well... there are many colleges...:) I also feel like i should talk to Timz... haven't seen her online, but then again i haven't been on much either... she's probably busy... hope she's alright... i need to talk to her to hopefully cheer me up =) I hate it how now i feel like i can't mention Ross on Bloop because its like when i mention him even just a bit people feel the need comment on it... and make up all these stories in their heads... its annoying... but oh well. I didn't get to talk to him this weekend and don't know when i will now... looks a bit hard... but we'll see. I think all's well again with him and Rachael i hope so... he wasn't too well about it last time =/ But i'm sure its better cause they're going away together for his birthday =) I miss my friends. And Sheehan... where are you ??? :'( Well... yeah.... that's all... *sigh* xx night xx