My birthday was great, with the exception that my best friend forgot my birthday... but uh yeah... oh well. =/
I got lots of text messages and emails. And phone calls! Mainly family... but An called me and we talked for half an hour... it was great. I love it how it's just so easy to be around her. I realised that I'm just so much more me around her than I am with any of my friends here... and it's not that i don't like my friends here... i mean they're my friends... of course i do... but i don't know... maybe part of it is my boundry in portugeuse... i guess it's easier to be myself with friends in english... weird, but oh well. =) It's all good. It was a great day.
You know what's weird though? The night before my birthday... I cried. And last night... the night of my birthday... I cried again... and it wasn't all just tears of happiness. =/ That's not normal is it? hmm. Oh well. No one needs to know.
I had a very odd dream this past night too... actually a few dreams. weird. One involved Lucas... now that was really weird. I can't even explain it. It was all about feelings kinda... and i felt loved... but then i don't know why i was also kinda jealous for some weird reason... and I was acting stupid with him... like I just felt like being hugged but for some reason I kept getting away. =/ Eh, who knows. Also dreamt that I went and got a haircut... and it was all layered and stuff, and it was nice. I think I also dreamt that I got accepted into the Florida college I applied to... weird. I wish it wasn't a dream. =/ And I dreamt some more weird things... that don't come to mind right now... but had some strong meaning... damn, can't remember what it was. Ah well.
No one reads this diary anymore... maybe I can just use it for myself. Yes, that's good. That's what it was supposed to be for anyway. =) I feel like change. I want to move things around... I want to re-arange my room. I want to do new things... I dunno.
Anyway... that's all for now. My computer is being really annoying. Maybe I'll take a break from Bloop. hmm.
xxbiaxx