The strike eventually gets to you. Has it been 3 weeks? It'll ruin everything. Will we still go to Rio for christmas? New Year? I wonder how it will all work out. This is all too new for me. Sometimes I really am an European type. I don't know why I've let myself get this far down with this guy. It's nothing like with him. I just keep wanting to feel, but it bugs me. It really makes me realise how there must really be something there with him. We have our moments... but i never feel like this towards him. Do i? One month. That's all that's left of his trip. On one hand... I want him to get home, so I can have more of his time... but then... i'm slightly frightened that as soon as he gets home, a new girlfriend will enter his life. I just know it. I hate it when i'm right. I guess i'll just keep lying to myself... and say that all i want is his friendship. I'll stand along through all of his failed relationships, just dreaming about the day he'll come to me. Right.