I just don't know what to do sometimes. I'm so scared he's just going to decide it's pointless. He tells me I have to believe. But does he realise that he's the one that makes me doubt sometimes? He's the one that doesn't believe sometimes. What if it's just a matter of time. I can do it. I know I can. But can he? Who knows. I hate it when he makes me think he can't... He doesn't have to cheat in order to hurt me. These thoughts he has is enough to hurt me sometimes. I can't be understandable all the time. It hurts. And it's natural for me to react to it the way I do. Okay, he's back, i'm going to go talk to him now.