so...i never really finished my last entry. there's a lot going on right now. i don't really understnad any of it, to be perfectly honest. maybe i'll just...make a list. i got in a car accident the other day. i was faulted...so, i have to come up with a thousand dollars to fix my car. me and jess broke up, like i said...ugh. now she's going around telling people that she cheated on me as "payback" for me cheating on her. which...i did, in the first few days of our relationship. but i came clean about it, and that was it. she assumed it continued, when it didn't. i guess that happens when you assume. aaaaaaaaand there's someone else right now...kind of. i think i like them. a lot. but i think i like them for the wrong reasons. at the same time...i really don't care. i know thats bad to say...i wish i knew how to explain myself better. she reminds me so much of you...its insane. at the same time, she's not you. she's just...herself. which makes me like her all the more. but...i'm not supposed to :/ tis all fucked up, really. ...i've been thinking about yo.U. a lot lately. i'm really not sure why. i just...have. i miss you. you know? i do. not...like that. i just miss you, thats all. you know its been over a year? thats crazy. i miss you. i do. i'd like to see you. but i'm in no hurry. i've waited a year, i can wait another. even more, if needed. its more...establishing the fact that i would actually WANT to see you. ...which, i do. this is going to be a long year.