so it's valentines day. whoo...? i actually did have some plans for today. i was gonna hang out with bobby, and we were going to spend the afternoon eating ice cream, and watching will and grace, and reflecting on how much relationships suck. buuut it didn't work out :[ stupid snowstorm. i'm actually glad we didn't have school today. i skipped out yesterday...i couldn't have stood to see them. either of them. i don't know what i'm going to do. little jordan (my supposed "friend") is in my last class of the day. sits right in front of me, actually. i'm trying to be okay. i'm not going to give anyone the satisfaction of seeing me cry. but it really is hard... i don't know how i would have gotten through that first night without my friends. kim, barry, bobby, lindsey...even my ex jess. and jesse from work, and jenni, and kylie... its crazy, i never thought my friends actually cared that much. but i haven't been alone since it happened. it's still hard to swallow...but eventually, i'll be okay. i'll be okay. okay, i've said it. now, to believe it. :/ thank you, to everyone who's been there for me. i owe you so much ♥