I'm coming out of my cage And I’ve been doing just fine Gotta gotta gotta be down Because I want it all It started out with a kiss How did it end up like this? It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss Now I’m falling asleep And she’s calling a cab While he’s having a smoke And she’s taking a drag Now they’re going to bed And my stomach is sick And it’s all in my head But she’s touching his—chest Now, he takes off her dress Now, let me go I just can’t look its killing me And taking control Jealousy, turning saints into the sea Swimming through sick lullabies Choking on your alibis But it’s just the price I pay Destiny is calling me Open up my eager eyes ‘Cause I’m Mr. Brightside I’m coming out of my cage And I’ve been doing just fine Gotta gotta gotta be down Because I want it all It started out with a kiss How did it end up like this? It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss Now I’m falling asleep And she’s calling a cab While he’s having a smoke And she’s taking a drag Now they’re going to bed And my stomach is sick And it’s all in my head But she’s touching his—chest Now, he takes off her dress Now, let me go I just can’t look its killing me And taking control Jealousy, turning saints into the sea Swimming through sick lullabies Choking on your alibi But it’s just the price I pay Destiny is calling me Open up my eager eyes ‘Cause I’m Mr. Brightside you know, all I ever wanted was for you to love me. Was that so much to ask? I've loved you since the moment we met. It was instant... i honestly wish it hadn't happened. i wish i could have just torn my heart out of my chest, thrown it at you, and walked away. it would have hurt less, in the long run. three years of my life, i've devoted to you. wasted on you. lost to you. it's not like i never tried to tell you. you just didn't listen. you never listened to me. i could tell you i loved you, and you'd start talking about the cute boy in school. i honestly don't know why i ever loved you. why i still hang on. you're selfish. you're one of the most selfish people i've ever met. and you turned me into a selfish person. i spent all my time and energy taking care of you, and nearly killed myself in doing so. because while i was talking care of you, you were worrying about yourself, as always. so in the end, no one was watching out for me. so i decided to focus on myself, since no one else cared enough to...not even my "loving" girlfriend. you know what? i would have given you everything. i would have gone to the ends of the earth for you. i would have killed for you. i. loved. you. you never did quite get that. you tried to take advantage of me. "Brandi, i'm having such a bad night, my life sucks and me and my boyfriend just got in a fight...i think you should move here, and be four hours away from everything you know, and start your life over again for the fourth time, and give up going to college, and get a job or two here so you can pay half the rent to live in a closet size bedroom in an apartment with me and my boyfriend, so that when i have nights like this i can come running to you and you can hold me and comfort me." you know what? fuck you. if you truly loved me, or had even a shred of respect for me, you would have wanted what was best for me. NOT what you think is best for you. i have no pity for you, honestly. you dug yourself into this hole you're in. it's your own goddamn fault you're having to jump from apartment to apartment and share rooms with 4 other people and work 3 jobs to pay for it. you took me for granted. i resent you terribly for it, but at the same time, i'm glad you did. because if you had opened your eyes, and seen what i was offering you, you could have so easily taken advantage of me. i would have given you the world on a silver platter. i would have gladly given up college and worked 2 or 3 jobs to support us. and all i would have asked for in return is for you to love me. hell, i would have been satisfied with you just saying you loved me. you wouldn't have even needed to mean it...it's not like you ever did before anyway, so i'm used to it by now. you know what? i almost did go to new york. i almost gave up everything i know, everyone i love, just to be near you. just for the chance that maybe, just maybe, you'd finally see me. i'm glad i didn't make that mistake. i made my decision on june 6th, and i haven't looked back since, nor do i regret it. i've finally found someone who loves me more than themselves. you would never, could never, have done that. god forbid you put yourself aside once in a while for someone else. i know you hate me for it. you don't want me to be happy with anyone else. especially not Jordan, i mean, how dare she get between us? how dare she steal me from you? how dare she tell you that she doesn't want me around you? you're kim quinn, i am Brandi Rose. you own me. i am at your beckon call, day and night, i always have been and always will be, and nothing and no one will ever come between us, because i have devoted myself to you, and vow to be your footstool for the rest of my days...right? sorry sweetie, but my world doesn't revolve around you anymore. get over yourself. you know, i almost made the same mistake you did. i had someone who was just as devoted to me as i once was to you. she was willing to give me everything, all she asked in return was that i love her. sound familiar? thank god she didn't give up on me...and thank god, i gave up on you. i get why she hates you now. it's the same reason as why i always hated Cai. You would have given him everything, anything, you would have devoted yourself to him...and he just threw that away, like it was nothing. ...like i was nothing. but hey, whatever, right? that was always your answer, to everything, "whatever". i'm through wondering "what if". I'm through with sleepless nights. I'm through tearing myself to pieces trying to please you. i'm through reminiscing. I'm through with getting hurt. i swear on everything in me that i'm through with you.