so it's 11:20 right now. i'm kinda tired, but no amount of bodily fatigue could slow down my racing mind. i really wish i had a sense of direction. because right now...i'm kinda just spinning freely. i hate this, being in limbo =/ everythings coming up soon. prom, scotts wedding, all arts day, graduation, kim, eileen, jenni, my birthday, college... it's gonna be here before i know it and i'm just gonna be slammed by it all. it's gonna be pretty overwhelming. amazing...but overwhelming. too much emotion, crammed into a short amount of time. i have a feeling i might lose my head before it's over to the rush =/ but eh. maybe not. i'm pretty good at taking things in stride. it's gonna be insane. even just to pick apart, it's all crammed together. prom next weekend. my cousins wedding the next day. kim the 28th and/or 29th (who i haven't seen in a year and a half) then eileen the 30th (who i haven't seen in...4 years) then jenni (who i haven't seen in a year) around that same time... then graduation, right after all of that. that's going to be emotional in itself, you know? crazy stuff. i can't wait for it though. none of it. i can't wait to see kim...i'm gonna cry, i bet you =] and eileen too. she's the closest thing i'll ever have to a sister. our parents have been friends for like, 20 years. i mean, they brought eileen to the hospital, and all of them waited while my mom was having me. we grew up together...she's one of those people that'll always be in my life, you know? no matter what, i've got her. Jenni too =] so that's pretty much my life right now. yeah, not too interesting, but meh. it's more than enough for me right now, lol. <333