oh damn i had a bad day yesterday. well it was amazing until the end of break. i was in the music block at the start of break playing random shit, then i looked up an iain was watchin me, so he came in and we just talked about music and played stuff, even had a laugh, then abbie ca,me up an told me to ask aiin if dan fancied her. dan is going out with alice but but alice wanted to know because shes like that and she can never have a proper relationship with anyone without wanting to set them up with one of her friends. weird but true. anyway i said im not askin him so anyway i went back in tah they came in an sed amy dosent need 2 tlk 2 u anymore. grrr they havent got a clue. firstly they told me iain had only gone up to the music block cause theyd told him i needed to talk to him. thanks guys. then she was goin on about how in love with him i was cause i was smiling at him. so now hes gonna think i wanted to talk to him about gettin back together or somethin an i bottled out...or am i just paranoid...i probably am, but i was so mad at them cause id been having fun with someone i liked no matter whether iwhad a chace or not, i just wish they hadnt told me...i know abbies being honset cause she dont want me to get my hopes up about him and then have me dissapointed but when someone tells you you cant have something you want, all the time every day it gets depressing after a while... so from then on i dunno....it was a bad day yesterday...i came out of re and started crying...it wasnt what i was cryin about but we were doin an end of year quiz an our group was losin and every time we got almost the lowest mark but it was because mr weir was picking random answers an if we didnt have those answers even if wed got a hundred other good answers we got zero i was so pissed off an then we got a question and they all put false an i knew it was true so i was shoutin at them an nearly crying...so i ran off to the library but when i got there i just wanted to curl up under the table and cry but i couldnt cry...and that made it worse because i got mad cause i coudlnt cry and it was like i needed to cry so much i couldnt actually do it...i went under the table anyway an scared the hell outta taz when he thought there was only him n amber in the room...hehehehe anyway that was my day yesterday. mrs horton said she was impressed with my revision folder..whoop de doo... anyway i was 14 on tuesday, so amber and her mum took me out. but first we had to take the cats to the vaccination clinic....it was heartbreaking because they really didn't want to be in those cages... anyway after that we went to nandos, and i was wearing my pretty shoes which murder my feet but look nice so i didnt mind. we went to nandos where it is a rule that you dont use a knife and fork. the food was hot but damn good, and the drinks were botomless (ie you could refil as many times as u wanted)thankgod cause that food was hot. but good. like ive already said. then we went bowling in star city byt which time it was about half eight probbaly later so we could onyl have one game, and i got beaten. with sticks. as in 30 points to 70 hehe ah well then we went home and i nearly went too sleep int he car was pretending he was there holding me to sleep but then i realised if i went to sleep here i wouldnt sleep at ambers so i woke up an talked to amber for a bit, then her mum came in with a cake and it was all chocolatey and bad but i ate it anyway because im a pig like that an took the rest to school next day. anyway so that was my birthday. im off to leamington with amber and abbie and alice now....but im not gonna use my b day money cause im saving for something. i dunno what...could be a guitar or a small tv or a pedal for my piano or just getting my piano fixed properly...anyway id better go now...abbie n alice will be trying to get me a boyfriends again, i remember the last time they did thsat to amber, he turned out to be just turned twelve, so shes standing him up - but he was so cute! how could she??? oh right shes just told him she cant make it good good. anyway ill go now... bye