I can't help thinking there's something bigger than this. life. Everything is so trivial. love, nature, earth wind fire its all so beautiful and how can one human compare to it? how can i ever experience even a kazillionth of what life is? everyone, everywhere tells you,. live life to the full, experience as much as you can, but life is so short, and maybe i am just pessimistic but at the moment there is nothing that excites me... i've finished reading this book called Lucas, and i spent hours thinking about how much i would trade my life to be that character, but then i thought, well no. i don't want to be that girl. i don't want to lose everything. so what do i want? even the prospect of romance dosent make me look forward to my life... i need osmething to look forward to, to keep me going, but at the moment, everything seems so trivial... Maybe i will feel differrent tomorrow. sleep can always calm me. I've just found it. Acting. That's how i do it... I can do anytyhing, i can be anyone, anywhere, any time...