yeah, so its beena while.... you know, i used to wish on eyelashes fr something beautiful to happen...and it has....but its fucked up...i cant love him... i just dont want him and im stuck because i cant break his heart ive brought him out into the light and i cant push him back... i was mean to him... i feel so completely alone.... amber and alice are always there to talk to but i just cry about everything, everyday.ts pathetic because i never cry...i havent cried properly in at least a year anyway until recently. things just built up. yeah i cant even write nicely anymore.