is this how the next two weeks is gonne bae? i am i think the most despairing i have been in god knows how long. There is absolutely NO ONE to go anywhere with, everyones on holidays having fun, its every summer lie this stuck here getting lazy and not doing anything sitting at the pc all day every day, i dont know if i can take two weeks of this, im in need of something , anything to do, even school would be better than this...... god i really want to go to town, but i dont wanna go on my own, im nothing without my friends and now theyre all gone and my mums going, go to the cinema with nick or someone and i dont want to cause he annoys me but i cant say that because his mums my mums boss, and i know i have nothign to do for a whole two weeks at least maybe three, and i had all this plan i was gonna get fit in the summer and have a whole health kick and its not happennign, all im doing is sitting here at this bloody computer because i have nothing better to do, except yoga, which ive already gone through the video three times and that patronising bitch keeps telling me im crap at yoga basically, and i just want to eat stuff but somehow i havent eaten anythign since this morning i want to eat but then i go into the kitchen and its like well no actually i dont want to eat, i want to go do soemthign then i get upset because there is nothing to do, except eat, sleep watch tv, play music. and i cant even play music cause the bank downstairs will complain, ajnd im talking to alice about how she wants to stay in saudi and she is sayign yeah yeah i still love u etc etc but ive been through that with greece, and i know thats where my blood is and ill never rbeak away from that and i felt like thta for at least a month after i got back from greece i just got back and thought jeez what a dump i dont wanna be here anmore i wanna be back in greece having a great time with everyone who treats me like a princess and talks to me and everyones so laid back, you go out in the evenings and you get back past midnight one o clock and wake up early and go for a swim, and its so peaceful and warm...anyway yeah now ive calmed down....dammit...ive made myself want to go back there now...andi cant because i was such a prat last time...