Hell again....havent written in a while, couldnt really think of ways to put things... am slightly less confused and stressy etc etc now but i had a sort of breakdown on thursday... Ihadnt learnt my words properly for one of my exam songs and mrs keeble was going on about it and how it would drag my marks downwhen i deserved a distinction etc etc and i hadnt been sleeping properly and i had coursewoek which was supposed to be in yesterday and hadnt done it and had to make up more lies ab0out it, and then i had the mikado rehearsals at every spare moment and abbie and alice were being cold and unhelpful because i hadnt been able to hang round with them so much and in cross country abbie'd got pissed off with me cause i didnt run with her even though id specifically told her i wanted to see how well i could do which meant not nessescarily running with her all the time and pacing myself but that i wouldnt leave her on her own unless she was with jillian, which she was, anyway then i had to go see mrs batten cause i was gettign migranes again and shes was asking me about stuff but i didnt want to tell her cause itd feel weird, and then i got a letter confirming that im probably gonna have a brace and i really dont want to until... yeah well never mind but anyway thatll probs happen in february and i got a detention on tuesday for not wering a mouthguard but i cant afford one that will fit my teeth, and then i had big important mikado rehearsal which meant i had to getout of tuesday detention etc etc more hassle and then i had to go work at reception instead doing pointless mindless stuff and had big row with alice and mrs palo found a note id written to amber about all the shit goign on and now its on the staff noticeboard, just great all my shit out in the open yeah anyway so with all that and more piled on top i kinda came out of my singing lesson and who walked by but iain....n i was trying so hard not to cry in front of anyone cause i cant stand peopel seeing me cry but then he hugged me and i just broke down a bit, i couldnt coherently get the whole thing out but it was good of him to stay there anyway... I think thats the longest sentence i have ever written. but im good now....dan n iain helped me learn my peice... and the mikado is over so im trying to relax a bit and it helps... and amber was lovely and gave many hugs.. and then i got to be iains dancing partner at the barn dance after the mikado was over and he threw me about for a bit which was...enjoyable... and amber and jake were ver cute together :D and Dan finally got to dance with alex... which was very funny... alex got so wound up... and matt... hehe so in a slightly better mood now, the mikado was fantastic, and i got many compliments which was lovely, and i loved doing it, even if my wig was the most hideous thing on earth :P and kept falling off... anyways im off now, the gestapo calls...