actually its more one sided than mixed, im really cheerful on one side, but then im kinda upset on the other. im upset cause i know im gonna fail, my singing exam. or at least just scrape a pass. this is because my sight singing is shitty. i just cant do it. its sooooo annoying. then mrs keeble started yelling at me cause i cudnt remember the words. i know she onyl does it so itll get through, but people shouting at me sets off a really bad reaction in me. it just makes me really really angry and this is usually because i know i cant argue back cause theyll shout back at me, and i usually cant shout so ill go off and cry somewhere, but i had the rest of my lesson of her yelling at me....amber it was a vicious cycle! anyway yesh i was kinda half crying when i got into drama after that and pretty dead. then i cheered up because i dunno it was just a really nice atmosphere in there. no one was screaming, but no one was silent. it was all kind of sleepy, and everyone was calm. i suppose thats the word. calm. and i went home with abbie and cheered up a lot, cause we were laughign so much. she said soemthign like, yeah hes walking around but i heard it as yeah hes warting around, and i told abbie an we just cudnt stop laughing. there were lots of other fun things including vince with a voice box and lewis - the truth. we also had a good laugh at the time when i was goin out with iain and i saw him outside the cinema, and i was so fucking nervous i just almost ignored him and started talking to my frineds..and the time when he gave me my christmas pressie and we were standing there and i was all terrified cause i didnt know whjat to do and was wondering if my breath was ok and stuff so anyway abbie kinds pushed iain towards me in an attempt to get us closer and i just ran backwards lol... we were worse than rob and abbie, and that IS saying something. anyway that reminds me: convo between abbie alice and iain: Alice: amy looks well pretty Iain: *mumble* Abbie: what? Iain: amy always looks pretty after a while Abbie: so let me geat this straight. you think shes pretty and amazing, and she thought you were pretty(?) and amazing, so why did you break up with her? Iain: i dont know Abbie: was it cause she was in year nine? Iain: no... so ha amber see i was a shit girlfriend but im not putting myself down i know for a fact i was and i accept it i didnt go near him the whole time i went out with him lol anyway off *that topic* ah im cheery i havent been cheery in a while..me mums out tonight, so i got the house to meself :P wonder what i could get up to...not much really.... i was thinking movie and junk food but im on a cutdown. im eating veg for lunch and meat for tea. that should sustain a balanced diet. also lots of water. anyway fed up of typing now, i may say stuff later. byeeee xxx