[Flies are taking over the world! Well, they are multiplying in my room, and, as pathetic as it is, that is pretty much my only world now.] I only realized it today. I am having a nervous breakdown. hahaha! And I think it is hilarious. I detached myself from my eyes, and looked at it through the ones of my family and friends. I am on a medical leave from school. I am unemployed and broke. In debt, to be exact. I cocoon myself around three layers of blankets and sheets. Shelter myself in my room. The room is hectic. The hardest task is getting up to piss. I don't remember the last time I left the house and was sober, the last time I bathed, the last time I ate a meal. The sympathetic looks and the hushed whispers behind my back. Oh my fucking god! I am breaking down. I have official documents; I am depressed. And all I can do is laugh. + -I do not need your fucking concern, thank you very much! I actually find it pretty darn funny. -That's what concerns me. Oh, shut up.