i'm having a bad day. things will perk up, i know. i'm just kind of unmotivated to go out, right now. fuck quebec, and its manic weather. - i have this new alarm that settled inside of me, it rings viciously when i am about to make a wrong decision. yesterday, i could have stayed and taken, with open arms, the pleasure that my loneliness brings. but instead of moping and feeling sorry for myself, i forced myself to go out. i, also, realised that i haven't drank by myself in a long time. a month? it was a horrible habit and i did not even realise that i put an end to it. it just happened. things, in general, are just starting to fall into place.