i can taste

vodka, beer

coffee

mojito

the candy

it's moving up and down

my throat

it's moving

inside me.

the wash and spin

cycle of my stomach

my head is floating

somewhere above me

and although i've showered

i still smell like

an ashtray

i want to vomit

and shit

and piss

and bleed

expell all bodily fluids

i want to be sucked dry,

suck the soul

deflate me

i'm giving up

you win