Well, I am talking to Dawn again; several things are on my mind. First of all, I want nothing more than to spend forever in her arms so this would look like the best thing that could ever happen to me.... well, even as right as it feels, I have some worries as well. She told me before that she didn't trust me with my friend Tracy, well, I will not give up my friendship, I want Dawn to understand that all me and Tracy share is a friendship. I need her to trust me and I need her to be ok with my friends. I don't want to feel bad about having female friends and I will try my best to play the same role in her life and not have a problem with her male friends. Next thing, I don't want to be on her mind simply because things aren't working with someone else. I want to be on her mind all the time, but because she has me on her mind, not because I am still hanging around. I don't want to be the fall back guy, the one always there after her heart. I want her back in my life so badly, but I can't risk the idea that she only wants me for now, not forever like I want her. I love her, and I don't care about what happened between her and #2, I trust her when she says nothing huge went on and I want her to trust that I did nothing significant as well. I know we both moved on to some extent yet both are finding ourselves falling back in love more and more every day. I want to put the past in the past and move on from this point forward, it is easy to say, I just hope we can both do it... It would make so many things easier to deal with. I trust her with the most significant things I have, my heart and my love for her. If she can find that trust for me as well, we will be able to move on and continue to grow with each other. I love her and will always do so. Christmas break can't come soon enough, yet I feel as if it will probably end very quickly. We can and will be able to work this all out; our love is stronger than anything we could ever encounter. I love you with all my heart and don't want you to ever forget that. When we meet again, I hope you feel the same about me. Only a week until we find out... it seems like forever.... Loving... dreaming... living... ~~Aaron