Well, today started out well enough... I saw Dawn this morning, then around 2 she had me get her stuff from the store to make hot coco for her kids at the preschool. I brought her the rose for the day to her work, I thought that would be a sweet idea. Then we had dinner with my grandparents for my grandfather's birthday. Tonight was our family's Christmas as we will be busy doing Christmas with the extended family on both sides on the 24th and 25th... I got so much more than I expected. Keep in mind that my parents got my brakes on my car done, so that was an expense intended to be a Christmas present. I got 10 various DVD's, many new and old ones that I can't wait to watch, two new sweaters, two Tommy shirts, a pair of jeans, a new lap desk for my laptop, 30 DVD-R disks so as to continue to copy movies, an egg crate for my bed in Dallas, a metal sign from my sister with several early mustangs through the present on it to hang on my wall next to the metal Speed Racer sign Dawn gave me:D, a funky light that reacts to touch (really quite cool if you could understand) and last but not least, a new Xbox!!!! I can't believe it, they fussed about my grades and all, and then get me something to procrastinate with!!! Any how, I was in very high spirits and decided to see if Dawn would come over again. She said she would and then the night went down hill from there. I wanted to spend a little while with her before I brought her back to my house, I feel kind of strange kissing her with my parents around, but anyhow, I sent the wrong signals and she got mad and decided she didn't actually want to spend any time with me at all. She came back to my house and was pissed the entire time, couldn't wait to leave. I walked her out, and all the way to her house while she basically ran in front of me. When I asked her to stop, that she still had 3 mins before she had to be home, my attempt to work things out, she just said something, something with like " minutes, whoop-de-f***in-doo" and that hurt so bad. I just wanted things to be great for us, you know. The rest of the night was good, why did this have to be so very bad? I called her and she hung up on me, I called back, she had more to say, it wasn't all good on either part, and we hung up again. I came home, and finally decided I was calm enough to write this entry. As soon as I started it, she came on and said she was sorry for the way tonight went, said she tried to find out if I could come over and if we could make up and her mother said no. So, she said she tried and I guess that is all I can ask for. I don't know what triggers these moods, if I did, I might just avoid her on these days; but once I see her, I don't want to let go even if she is mad or mean or whatever. I don't ever want to let her go. That in itself is my downfall. I want to keep her around me even when she is pissed at me! Anyhow, not much more to say... I love Dawn with all my heart, I just wish things didn't go this way so often. Aaron I love you Dawn.... Forever and always...