Today, what is there to say about today. I had a government test today. I dislike college; I now understand that if you don’t drink, or freely have sex with random people, you won’t get much out of your college experience. I seem to be a fairly conservative person so I don’t fit in with the frats nor do I really wish to. Last year a frat requested me to consider joining, but after review and finding out the expenses involved, I declined. So, back to the government test…. I have no idea how I did. You know that feeling like, the test wasn’t that bad, but you know that as soon as you think that it will come back to haunt you? Well, we will see soon enough what the test was like. I hope I did well. I didn’t spend as much of today thinking about Dawn as I have in the past. I think today might have just been so busy that I didn’t have the time to think about her. I didn’t even spend much time with my friends today, it was just like today was rush here and there every time I turned around. I can’t wait for the November break for thanksgiving, yet in a way, I also wish it would never come. The thanksgiving break will be the first time I will see Dawn since we broke up; it might also be the last time I get to experience that feeling of pure love for her. You know, if we aren’t meant to be I should be able to tell by that point. If the love within our relationship is just on my side, I think I will see it in how she treats me. I want so badly to be back with her, yet if she can’t love me anymore, if she wants out for any reason, then I will begin to let her go. I know I can’t let her go yet simply because in my heart I feel we are meant to be. I love her and really think she loves me. Some day I will find someone to love me the way I want to be loved, the way I will love them in return, and if it is Dawn, I will be happy, but if it isn’t her, I will know that I didn’t cut the relationship short. I know I will have given it everything I could, I will have given every chance possible to make it work. I want it to work so bad. I love Dawn with all my heart, you think she knows? If she does know, do you think it makes her happy? Will she have another guy in her life by the time I come home? If she has another guy, will she be strong enough to tell me before I try and see her again? Yeah, not such great thoughts… I think it is time to go… Loving every day a little more… ~~ Aaron