Well, today was okay... It is late... I sat at y apartment most of the day, didn't actually get much of anything done. I should have worked on homework, lots of physics to do, yet just seemed to have a lazy day. Spent the afternoon with friends and then went and saw Coach Carter. Very good movie, much better than I thought it was going to be. Came back to my apartment around 12:30 and started playing Halo. My friends just left as it is now 4:09 am. Thinking it will be a good day to sleep in... we shall see. So, having put everything off, tomorrow afternoon will be busy. Hope everyone is safe and having a warm night as it is rather cold here in Richardson, Tx. May God bless each and every one of you out there. By the way, found out today, for myself, that I can't fall back into anything with Dawn. She wasn't in the relationship to the extent that I was. She loved me, but not like I loved her. I might have hurt her, but knowing the pain I feel from how she treated me... how she couldn't tell me what I did wrong, and how she wouldn't give me the chance to make things right... I can't love her anymore. I will still think about her, wonder if she is doing well, but I refuse to want to be with her anymore. We will see how that works out. I don't want to rush into anything with anyone else, yet I can now actually see myself dating again. I was holding on to Dawn, and I held on a bit to long, nearly 4 months to long as it seems. I gave her the best of me, she took a lot out of me, but in the end, what doesn't kill me makes me stronger. Love might not come as easily to me after having been through such pain, but I have experienced pain before and made it through, I will make it through this one. I can love another, I will find another, I feel as if our break up is her loss. I was willing to be the bigger person and change things in my life so as to make it work, I dealt with her telling me what I could and couldn't do for way to long. I loved her with all my heart, and most of what she asked didn't bother me simply because I was so very in love with her. She seemed to dwell upon every little thing I asked of her, I don't feel as if she was able to love me nearly as much as I loved her. Someday, some way she will find out what she lost. I am no place close to great or wonderful, but loving and honest are just as significant. I loved her with all I had, yet love her I will do no more. Memories forever, but even in the end, memories fade. I know, I gave it all I could, I gave her all I had and I was willing to do what ever it took to make it work for us. She wasn't even willing to give me a chance to make things better. I am sure she will grow out of the phase that everything must be her way and venture into a life that has someone waiting for her, waiting there to love her; I won't be there... never again. Aaron, finally moving on...