"And yesterday, after a couple days of huge, blow-out fighting, I walked into work to find a red rose and a card with my name on it, from my sweet Aaron. He may drive me crazy at times, but he always knows how to make me feel better." That was written by Dawn, yet it wasn't good enough. I did everything, always. Here is what happened: Wednesday night Dawn begged me to come home this weekend. Her friend De was coming home to celebrate her birthday and Dawn was going to go out with her and maybe some other friends. I told Dawn that it might not even be a great idea for me to come home as she already had plans and she assured me that she would work it so that she got to spend all the time possible with me if I did come home. She said it wouldn't be a problem to De, she was sure, and that I could just go along with them. It sounded right to me because I know my friends would never be able to tell me that they didn't want my girlfriend with me and if they did I would know that they weren't true friends. I believe De is a true friend of Dawn. Thursday night I talked to my family and they said it would be fine if I came home. I told Dawn and she was so excited. I thought "Wow, I finally did something right, I made her truly happy." Well, I couldn't have been further from wrong. She started working it out and once I mentioned that it would be strange if the other Aaron was with them, she told me that no matter what she wouldn't be spending Saturday night with me. That made me mad because everything was fine until she thought it might make him upset to have me around. That is bull shit if you ask me... she wasn't even thinking about me, just had to spend the day with her friends. She kept saying she needed that night away from me while I see I am driving 10 hrs round trip to see her and she can't even include me in her plans. I never told her to change them, never told her to cancel them, just asked her to include me as I was driving such a long way to see her. It was fine at first, then got bad. So I decided, knowing where she stood on the matter, that it would be easier for me to not be at home, upset with the fact that she was blowing me off by going out doing who knows what with who knows who. Besides, whatever she had planned must have been something she wasn't proud of as she couldn’t do it around me. I don't have anything to hide from her and would love to have her with me at any time, with or without friends. She then decided that since she didn't want to see me all the time, that since she wasn't willing to give up Saturday night, which by the way I wasn't asking her to give up, then that must mean that she wasn't really that interested in being with me. All in all, Dawn broke up with me because I did what she begged me to do and planned to drive home to see her, what the fuck is that? I have never felt like this. I just don't want to be here anymore. I don't want to be in Dallas, I don't want to be connected to the world, if it weren't for the friends that care and the family that believes in me, I wouldn't want to be on this Earth another day. I can't stand the way she treated me, the fact that she can love me and be with me when it is convenient to her. How forever can be compressed to a matter of hours for her, as she said she wanted to spend forever with me yet ended it two days later. I was doing everything right, I realized it wasn't going to be a good thing for me to be there, I realized I was going to have a huge problem with her treating me like that, so I was going to stay out of it, I was going to not go home because she wasn't going to have the time for me, the time that I wanted. She wasn't going to treat me like I wanted to be treated. I was going home because I wanted to see her, I wanted to be with her, she wanted me there, I was doing it for us to help us be better and it ended up breaking us apart. Why was the best thing I had to look forward to killed? Why, even while I was doing everything right, did it still end? I gave her everything, and I can only think she had something planned to do with Aaron #2 that she didn't want me around for. If so, that is a BITCH move. I gave her the world, she ended mine.... Aaron Not quite living....