I think I might be done with sitD... I love writing things here, I love reading what people say (most of the time)... I love reading when my baby has had a great day with me, or finding out exactly where I screwed up... but I can't stand the idea of the private entry, or at least her keeping private entries. It sounds very stupid on my part, but if you take the time to understand or see where I am coming from it might make a bit more sense. I don't keep things from her, and have only posted like 3 private entries ever, 2 of which were blank and one that didn't really mean anything at all, mostly to spike interest. I feel as if I have nothing to hide, nothing to hide from Dawn nor the rest of my friends. If it is something I want to keep from people, I just don't write it. I don't like the chance that someone could find it or come across it or anything like that, so I keep it to myself. No one has to know if I am keeping things to myself and personally I know that I never keep things from Dawn. I tell her when things bother me, when I have a great time, when I have a bad day. I tell her what I think about others, what I think about her, what I think about us. I don't like it when I ask her about private entries and she gives nothing. I know she doesn't have to say anything at all to me about them, but it assures me she wants this, this relationship based upon trust, something very important to me. I want her to tell me everything, things she can't tell anyone else. I want her to tell me when she is angry with me, I want her to tell me about her family. I want her to never keep things from me. I feel as if this is a way for her to keep things from me and I don't like it. I don't like that it could be the first signs of trouble for us expressed there in a private entry and I just end up prolonging the relationship when all she wants is out. I don't like knowing that she has the ability to keep things from me, no matter how significant. If she can keep little things from me now, where will it go in the future? This is me venting, I know I have no right to ask her to not make private entries, nor do I have the right to ask her to tell me all her thoughts and secrets... I just feel as if it should be that way without her being asked. I feel that she should want to tell me everything and never want to keep things from me.... Please, no comments about this one, it was just me venting... This might be the last entry... we will see... Bye to all... Aaron