it's like an epiphany when something abstract becomes tangible in your own being, when something you see equals something you feel, and you feel it in every part of you. it radiates outward from your heart to the palms of your hands and just sits there, tingling, and reminding you you're alive. god it's good to be alive. i went driving this morning at 6:00. the day was dawning. the air was fresh and cool, and perfect. i rolled the windows down, turned my music off, and drove in silence to this huge hill by my church, overlooking the river. i watched the sun rise from the highest point in town, breathing in the cool dampness of early morning air, the fragrant perfumed air of the woods. it was beautiful and for a brief time that seemed long enough to me, everything was wonderful in the world, and my body exhaled beauty and happiness. i am happy to be alive.