sometimes i don't even know how to describe what i'm feeling. i don't know any words to hint at the implications of whatever's going on inside. hm. dark gray thoughts. not necessarily menacing, just dark gray. made eye contact with a boy i passed on the street today. it was refreshing. he looked sweet. it's upsetting sometimes when the inner struggles of characters on a screen are reflected in the person you're sitting next to. i'm sorry. i didn't know that was in there. i ate more today that i've eaten in the last three days combined. feeling quite unhappy about that. going to the doctor tomorrow. equally unhappy about that. blood work scheduled. stay out of my skin, please. if it weren't so disgustingly hot and humid outside, and if it weren't such a likely possibility that i would be eaten alive by mosquitos, i would like to go outside, and just sit by myself, and not think a thing.