im so mad... i can't believe this happened to my "niece-to-be"... she only had 3 more months to be born and now its all over... i was starting to love the idea of holding her and seeing how she would look and... im just so mad... its just not fair... im trying not to cry... but it just hurts... DAMMIT!!! i just want to hit someone so that they could feel what i feel... the bad thing is they think my brother caused the death cause his girl had bruises, but i doubt he could cause he wanted this baby more then anything... plus i saw him this morning and he didn't know anything was wrong... he's not the type to hide emotions... wow, when he finds out... i don't know how he'll react... i know theres gonna be alot of crying and screaming and anger and lots of tears... he really, really wanted this kid... i hope the girl is alright... i know losing a baby is real painful... not only emotional, but physical as well, especially when ur almost 6 months along... she's a cool chic, so i hope she's recovering well... damn, this really sucks... the wierd thing is that me and my dude decided we wanted to have a kid... he "came" in me just 4 days ago... i might be pregnant as im writing... this is just too wierd... how am i suppose to be relaxed about having a baby, when i feel so hurt about my niece dying... i don't think i could handle it if it was my kid... it feels like she was already born and i held her... how can u love someone u've never met? i just loved her so much... this really hurts... i really hate this...