just figured out mark left deeper scars on me then i thought... im playing with my bf and he's holding me down to tickle me and my mind goes back to that place where mark used to hold me down... i dont like thinking of mark anymore but this just freaked me out... i teared up for a while and just got angry... i wish i had him tied to a chair where i could beat him with a bat till he feels the pain he's left within me...