Listening to: my heart beating violently!!!!!!!!!!!
Feeling: broken
Sabdil0602 [3:26 AM]: :-!
Auto response from Srifera [3:26 AM]: i hate you! I Hate You!! I HATE YOU!!! I FUCKING HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sabdil0602 [3:26 AM]: yeah well i fucking hate you to !
Srifera [3:27 AM]: lol..... why so much anger?
Srifera [3:27 AM]: :-P
Sabdil0602 [3:27 AM]: no why you have so much anger?
Sabdil0602 [3:27 AM]: ;-)
Srifera [3:28 AM]: alex.... who else pisses me off......
Srifera [3:28 AM]: :-X
Srifera [3:28 AM]: but whatevers...... what can i do but bitch about it
Sabdil0602 [3:29 AM]: what he do now ?
Srifera [3:29 AM]: he said he was coming through and look at the time.......... i hate being told something and then having to wait and mad hours later, im still waiting
Sabdil0602 [3:30 AM]: lol loser
Sabdil0602 [3:30 AM]: like the new SN ?
Srifera [3:30 AM]: i like the lil pic on the side:-D
Srifera [3:31 AM]: is that saying u two faced?
Sabdil0602 [3:31 AM]: lol
yeah im a gemini
Sabdil0602 [3:31 AM]: lol
Srifera [3:31 AM]: :-P
Sabdil0602 [3:31 AM]: nah i have two sides
Srifera [3:31 AM]: the angry side and the boyband side
Srifera [3:31 AM]: i know
Srifera [3:31 AM]: lol
Sabdil0602 [3:31 AM]: lol
Srifera [3:31 AM]: :-P
Sabdil0602 [3:31 AM]: you got jokes
Srifera [3:32 AM]: its fun messing with ppl........ especially u, cause its so easy
Srifera [3:32 AM]: lol
Srifera [3:32 AM]: :-X
Sabdil0602 [3:33 AM]: so whats good
Srifera [3:35 AM]: nothing, i was suppose to write a paper for psychology due tomorrow, but never got around to it...... theres still hope though
Srifera [3:35 AM]: i got hope
Srifera [3:35 AM]: i still got some hours till tomorrow
Sabdil0602 [3:36 AM]: so start the shit already
Srifera [3:36 AM]: im not in the mood.......
Srifera [3:37 AM]: have u ever just not been in the mood?
Srifera [3:38 AM]: im like that alot.......
Sabdil0602 [3:38 AM]: lol
Sabdil0602 [3:38 AM]: what kinda mood?
Sabdil0602 [3:38 AM]: you talking about ?
Srifera [3:39 AM]: im not in the mood to do anything....... i have an online diary where i write and ppl read and tell me stuff and thats all im in the mood for right now........ thats what im doing now...... just reading other ppl's diaries and writing them comments
Sabdil0602 [3:40 AM]: lol
Sabdil0602 [3:40 AM]: word where i wanna read some of your shit?
Srifera [3:41 AM]: let me get the link.....hold on
Sabdil0602 [3:41 AM]: k
Srifera [3:42 AM]: my diary......
Srifera [3:42 AM]: click the link
Sabdil0602 [3:42 AM]: k
Sabdil0602 [3:46 AM]: damn everyone who wrote in there have many issues just like you
Sabdil0602 [3:46 AM]: lol
Srifera [3:46 AM]: :-Pthats why im addicted to the site
Srifera [3:47 AM]: im just another "clone" in this world...... no ones an individual.......... we are all the same person
Sabdil0602 [3:47 AM]: lol
Srifera [3:50 AM]: u should start a diary too....... then i could write u comments about how much of a "guy" u are..... sounds like fun
Srifera [3:50 AM]: :-P
Sabdil0602 [3:50 AM]: lol
Sabdil0602 [3:50 AM]: no thanks
Sabdil0602 [3:50 AM]: i like keeping many thing i feel inside
Sabdil0602 [3:50 AM]: i have to much shit to write about
Srifera [3:51 AM]: i have enough to keep inside and write and talk about......
Srifera [3:51 AM]: ......
Srifera [3:51 AM]: bad business
Sabdil0602 [3:51 AM]: >:o
Srifera [3:51 AM]: i think im bipolar.............
Sabdil0602 [3:51 AM]: :-
Srifera [3:52 AM]: my dad is taking medication for it........ i think i inherited his mental disorders
Sabdil0602 [3:53 AM]: =-O
Sabdil0602 [3:53 AM]: :-D
Sabdil0602 [3:53 AM]: loser
Srifera [3:53 AM]: never that
Srifera [3:53 AM]: :-P
Sabdil0602 [3:56 AM]: anyhow im fucking bored as hell
Srifera [3:56 AM]: me too
Srifera [3:56 AM]: i registered for classes though
Srifera [3:56 AM]: :-D
Sabdil0602 [3:56 AM]: thats cool
Srifera [3:57 AM]: the bad thing is i took a summer course and its 3 hours a day, 4 days a week
Srifera [3:57 AM]: thats alot
Sabdil0602 [3:57 AM]: look whos online
Sabdil0602 [3:57 AM]: lol
Srifera [3:57 AM]: what a butthead
Sabdil0602 [3:59 AM]: lol
Sabdil0602 [3:59 AM]: why so mean
Srifera [3:59 AM]: why not?
Srifera [3:59 AM]: lol
Sabdil0602 [3:59 AM]: um what ever
Sabdil0602 [4:00 AM]: lol
Srifera [4:01 AM]: dont tell him im pissed!!!
Srifera [4:01 AM]: butthead
Sabdil0602 [4:01 AM]: opppsssss
Sabdil0602 [4:01 AM]: shit to late
Sabdil0602 [4:01 AM]: :-X
Srifera [4:01 AM]: :-P
Sabdil0602 [4:01 AM]: :-P
Sabdil0602 [4:01 AM]: live with it
Srifera [4:01 AM]: lol....... i know, he told me
Sabdil0602 [4:01 AM]: just fight each other
Sabdil0602 [4:01 AM]: lol
Srifera [4:03 AM]: :-P
Sabdil0602 [4:03 AM]: so what else is up
Srifera [4:03 AM]: lol...... nothing, just talking
Sabdil0602 [4:06 AM]: blah blah blah
Srifera [4:07 AM]: :-P
Srifera [4:09 AM]: so........yeah
Sabdil0602 [4:09 AM]: what you wanna talk about ?
Srifera [4:09 AM]: i dont know.......... what else is there to talk about?
Sabdil0602 [4:10 AM]: life
Sabdil0602 [4:10 AM]: you
people
Sabdil0602 [4:10 AM]: hate anger god
Sabdil0602 [4:10 AM]: lol
Srifera [4:10 AM]: :-P
Srifera [4:11 AM]: im just pissed......... i dont need a reason....... i always get one though......... life sucks......... god is nonexistant or he just doesn't care......... and i want to disappear for years and come back a new person
Sabdil0602 [4:12 AM]: lol
Srifera [4:12 AM]: maybe i should just act more crazy then i am....... say im going to kill myself........ and be commited in a psych ward
Sabdil0602 [4:12 AM]: nah don't do that
Srifera [4:12 AM]: then i'll get normalized........ and come out new
Sabdil0602 [4:12 AM]: nah
Srifera [4:12 AM]: why?
Srifera [4:13 AM]: i have a couple years to waste
Sabdil0602 [4:13 AM]: cuz we will all miss you
Srifera [4:13 AM]: riiigghhtt........
Srifera [4:13 AM]: come visit once a week
Sabdil0602 [4:13 AM]: nah for real we will
Sabdil0602 [4:13 AM]: lol
Sabdil0602 [4:13 AM]: to much work
Srifera [4:13 AM]: lol
Srifera [4:14 AM]: when u miss someone, it makes ya closer when they return
Srifera [4:14 AM]: it'll be cool
Srifera [4:15 AM]: i was going to do that the other day.........
Srifera [4:15 AM]: 2 days ago
Srifera [4:15 AM]: it was 3am going on 4
Srifera [4:15 AM]: i was going to walk to jacobi's psych ward and commit myself
Srifera [4:15 AM]: but i didn't have the ballls
Sabdil0602 [4:17 AM]: lol
Sabdil0602 [4:17 AM]: damn
Srifera [4:17 AM]: i dont think its healthy to be so angry........
Sabdil0602 [4:17 AM]: itsnot
Srifera [4:18 AM]: so wouldn't it be better for me?
Sabdil0602 [4:18 AM]: thats why at times i dont care anymore
Srifera [4:18 AM]: i tried that........ i say i dont, but i know i do....... lying to other ppl is easy, but u could never really lir to urself
Srifera [4:18 AM]: it doesn't work
Sabdil0602 [4:19 AM]: nah i dont lie
Srifera [4:20 AM]: i mean when i try it
Sabdil0602 [4:21 AM]: brb
Srifera [4:21 AM]: ok
Sabdil0602 [4:23 AM]: back
Srifera [4:23 AM]: yay
Srifera [4:23 AM]: woo hoo
Srifera [4:23 AM]: *dances around room*
Srifera [4:23 AM]: ::shake it dont break it::
Sabdil0602 [4:24 AM]: loser
Srifera [4:25 AM]: :-P
Srifera [4:25 AM]: u know u like it
Sabdil0602 [4:25 AM]: nope
Srifera [4:26 AM]: fine....... i will never dance out of happiness for u again today
Srifera [4:26 AM]: :-P
Sabdil0602 [4:26 AM]: okay but tomorrow you will?
Srifera [4:27 AM]: depending on if u desearve it or not
Sabdil0602 [4:28 AM]: um ......
Sabdil0602 [4:28 AM]: okay i guess
Srifera [4:29 AM]: i see happiness in that "i guess"
Srifera [4:29 AM]: :-P
Sabdil0602 [4:29 AM]: brb
Srifera [4:29 AM]: ok
Sabdil0602 signed off at 4:36 AM
Sabdil0602 [4:35 AM]: back
Auto response from Srifera [4:35 AM]: call me if i dont answer back...
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Lyrical nazi [3:57 AM]: baby
Srifera [3:57 AM]: yes?
Lyrical nazi [3:57 AM]: i fell asleep
Srifera [3:58 AM]: it happens
Lyrical nazi [3:58 AM]: no not like his
Lyrical nazi [3:58 AM]: opps, this
Lyrical nazi [3:58 AM]: i fell asleep in the shower
Srifera [3:58 AM]: thats not good
Lyrical nazi [3:58 AM]: i did like you said and layed in the tub full of hot water.. and i fell asleep
Srifera [3:59 AM]: u could have drowned!!!!!!
Srifera [3:59 AM]: >:o
Srifera [3:59 AM]: good u mad tall
Lyrical nazi [3:59 AM]: nah, i have a tub pillow that my father uses. it holds your neck in place
Srifera [4:00 AM]: wow....... sounds like a pleasant experience
Lyrical nazi [4:00 AM]: i only woke up because my pops kept knockin
Srifera [4:00 AM]: did u have a dream?
Lyrical nazi [4:00 AM]: sab says your pissed
Lyrical nazi [4:00 AM]: :-(
Srifera [4:01 AM]: sab has a big mouth
Lyrical nazi [4:01 AM]: Srifera [3:29 AM]: he said he was coming through and look at the time.......... i hate being told something and then having to wait and mad hours later, im still waiting
Srifera [4:02 AM]: wow
Srifera [4:02 AM]: he really has a big mouth
Lyrical nazi [4:02 AM]: baby, i know you hate when i fuck up on meeting with you
Lyrical nazi [4:02 AM]: i don't do it on purpose
Lyrical nazi [4:02 AM]: for real
Srifera [4:03 AM]: shit always happens though...... i guess thats life
Lyrical nazi [4:03 AM]: i won't say i'm sorry.. cause it won't make up for my fuck up
Lyrical nazi [4:03 AM]: but i swear i won't mess up friday
Srifera [4:04 AM]: its for 5pm......... i made the appointment
Lyrical nazi [4:05 AM]: awesome... hey, would you like to go to the movies with me and sab
Lyrical nazi [4:05 AM]: sunday
Srifera [4:05 AM]: sounds good
Srifera [4:05 AM]: what we watching?
Lyrical nazi [4:05 AM]: van helsing
Srifera [4:05 AM]: never heard of it
Lyrical nazi [4:06 AM]: the guy who fights dracula and frankenstien
Lyrical nazi [4:06 AM]: the wolf man
Srifera [4:06 AM]: ohh...... ok
Srifera [4:06 AM]: i saw 10.5
Srifera [4:06 AM]: :-D
Srifera [4:06 AM]: it was good
Lyrical nazi [4:06 AM]: wow
Srifera [4:06 AM]: the ending could have been better though
Lyrical nazi [4:06 AM]: it's a cool flick
Srifera [4:07 AM]: but i liked it
Lyrical nazi [4:07 AM]: it was a mini series
Lyrical nazi [4:07 AM]: it had 6 parts
Srifera [4:07 AM]: well, i saw the last part
Lyrical nazi [4:08 AM]: baby, i'm about to log off to get some more sleep. i just came on to say i'm sorry for being soo tired
Srifera [4:08 AM]: ok
Srifera [4:08 AM]: byes!!!!
Srifera [4:08 AM]: *waves*
Lyrical nazi [4:15 AM]: wait
Srifera [4:16 AM]: im not going nowhere
Srifera [4:16 AM]: u were leaving........ remember
Lyrical nazi [4:16 AM]: i know
Lyrical nazi [4:16 AM]: i need the potty
Srifera [4:16 AM]: huh?
Srifera [4:16 AM]: i dont have it
Srifera [4:16 AM]: :-P
Lyrical nazi [4:16 AM]: i gotta pee
Lyrical nazi [4:16 AM]: brb
Srifera [4:17 AM]: ok
Lyrical nazi [4:21 AM]: my ex, tried to get back together with me
Lyrical nazi [4:21 AM]: earlier yesterday
Lyrical nazi [4:21 AM]: i have no feelings good or bad for her
Lyrical nazi [4:22 AM]: in the pic, she's the one next to me in the gray sweater
Lyrical nazi [4:22 AM]: i showed her your pic and told her i'm taken
Srifera [4:22 AM]: :-)
Srifera [4:22 AM]: sounds good
Lyrical nazi [4:23 AM]: she got soo pissed that i'm over her
Lyrical nazi [4:23 AM]: i was head over heels when i first met her.. but she's ugly inside. deep in her heart she's a awful person
Srifera [4:24 AM]: thats no good
Lyrical nazi [4:24 AM]: i hate her
Lyrical nazi [4:24 AM]: she hurt me bad
Srifera [4:24 AM]: im sorry if i ever do that........
Lyrical nazi [4:24 AM]: nahh
Lyrical nazi [4:24 AM]: you're special
Srifera [4:25 AM]: i dont want u to ever hate me though
Srifera [4:25 AM]: nomatter what
Srifera [4:25 AM]: u promise?
Lyrical nazi [4:25 AM]: i won't hate you, because your not ugly inside
Lyrical nazi [4:25 AM]: you're pure
Lyrical nazi [4:25 AM]: your heart is always in the right place
Srifera [4:26 AM]: even when i want to beat someone to death for sitting in my seat in class?
Lyrical nazi [4:26 AM]: hey, do it
Lyrical nazi [4:27 AM]: you're still good to me
Srifera [4:27 AM]: then i'll go to jail...... how long will u wait for me?
Lyrical nazi [4:27 AM]: unlike your 10 years, i'll wait forever
Srifera [4:28 AM]: :'(u making me tear up
Lyrical nazi [4:28 AM]: i'll meet someone new if it's longer then 20, but once you come out, i belong to you
Srifera [4:29 AM]: love fades........ u might stop loving me and love her........... or i might change into a different person
Srifera [4:30 AM]: baby......... im in one of my "moods"...... sorry for all the negativity
Lyrical nazi [4:30 AM]: listen, you're right. love does fade, but love is in the mind.. my heart will always be with you, even if we aint together
Lyrical nazi [4:30 AM]: it's not negative
Lyrical nazi [4:30 AM]: we all get those moods
Lyrical nazi [4:30 AM]: :-D
Lyrical nazi [4:31 AM]: i love you, no matter what mood you in
Srifera [4:32 AM]: i think im bipolar........ i learned about it in school and my dad is taking medication for it and i think i inhereted it..........so im gonna be in those moods alot........
Lyrical nazi signed off at 4:32 AM
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i think your journal set up and the whole journal is cool.
im kate
(exploited)
ok ciao
People mess with me a lot too and it sucks, I hate it.
.mae.
People are stupid. Too stupid.
*Jenna