Well for awhile now I was talking about doing my marketing paper… not to the diary, but to everyone else I know. I have just decided “FUCK IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!” I don’t feel like doing it, so I won’t. My brain just won’t let me. Its 5:21 in the fucking morning and I'm just out of it. Its just one class; I could always make it up. No biggy. I still don’t know what I want to be when I finally decide to “Grow the Fuck up”. I always wanted to be an actress, but everyone is trying that out. No room for Sabrina in the entertainment business. For them it’s just an easy way to really do nothing and get paid. I wanted to be an actress so at least somewhere I could see myself living a different life that’s not this one. I could have a happy ending in one and die in another. I would just have liked to see myself as someone else on the big screen. Whatever though… all dreams are meant to be broken, just like I was meant to live a meaningless life b4 I die. It still weirds me out that I’m gonna DIE. No matter what I do, eventually I’ll die. Sometimes (well a lot of times) I just sit down and let it sink into ME that “I WILL DIE”. It’s the most terrifying feeling to know that this isn’t a game. No ones gonna pop up out of nowhere and say “Sike a Mike, death is fake” and then all my supposed dead family members will walk up to me with smiles on their faces, laughing and saying “We got you...” . I hate knowing I can’t control what happens in my life 100%. Let me stop talking about this cause I’m just gonna keep freaking myself out and there really isn’t anything I can do but live life and hope I’m not such a bitch that I’ll end up in some HELL. How do we know that all these religions even mean anything? What if we waste our lives worshiping the wrong god and are screwed at the end? I rather just worship no one and hope if there is a god, he’ll understand where I’m coming from. Reincarnation would be cool though. Living sucks, but I kinda like it… at least I know how the rules of “EARTH” works… the world sucks and we all gonna kill each other off and roaches gonna reign over the earth again… humans are so stupid… I wish I had super powers so I could kill all the “EVIL” people. I don’t mean bitches with attitude problems (even though I would have fun slapping them around and putting them in their places)… what I mean is murderers, rapist, just evil motherfuckers. I would find bin laden, bring him to the BX and have all the wannabe gangsters kick his ass. No guns please… we don’t want him dying too quickly. His ass gotta pay for all the shit BUSH putting us through. If he dies, I’ll make sure I’ll bring his ass back to life cause every fucking person in the U.S. and beyond have to get their fair chance to beat his ass. How sweet would that be? Too bad I don’t get super powers. And those bitch asses beheading people and blowing themselves up gotta pay too. How lovely it’ll be to put them in a big oven and slowly burn them to death. Their screams would be like sweet music to our ears. I’m not a patriotic person, but I know when shit’s fucked up, and those assholes gotta pay!!!!!!!! LONG LIVE FUCKING AMERICA!!!!!!!!!! Like I said b4, its too bad Sabrina wasn’t born with super powers......