well, i haven't written in awhile cause i've been doing actual stuff... like chilling with the new BF everyday and all that good stuff... b4 i get to him though, let me tell u about everything that's been happening in my life... first off, my b-day sucked... i went to my cuz house, watched him clean... then we did some boring stuff... then we went to a liquor store where i bought some passion fruit drink(for me and the old bf)... my cuz bought me a bacardi lemon with cute shot glasses... then we went to my uncles house to wait for him to come back from Puerto Rico... my cuz drank half the bacardi and i took one shot... i wasn't in the mood to be drunk and bored... by the time my uncle came, i just went him and stood bored... the good thing that happened was that i got mad phone calls and text messages and emails wishing me happy b-day, so that mad me happy... i sent random strangers messages telling them it was my b-day... lol... i got no shame... i was bored... :-P the day after my b-day, i went with my cuz sarah to a lounge called "the green tavern"... we had to wear all white cause that was the theme that day... it was fun... we danced and had a few drinks... i was actually all girly, so that shocked a few ppl... lol... i gotta grow up sometime... the day after that, i was at work and i met this kid... i wasn't really paying him much mind, but he seemed nice... i kept asking him where things go(we were doing closing and had to put all the stuff back where they go)... then we all finished... and he asked if i wanted a ride... i was like ok... we talked the whole ride to my house and then said bye... this is what i wrote on my calender that day "work sucked like always... met this dude who gave me a ride... i dont remember his name... lol"... then me and him said hi at work... regular coworker stuff... then he gave me a ride again... this time we went to McDonalds too though... we talked some more and he drove me home... i was really into him by then, but i didn't want to admit it cause i had a man... well, to make a long story short... i broke up with my man, started dating JuanCarlos... now im happy... alex(my ex) is real depressed... i still love him, but as a friend... as family... im no longer in love with him... he knows why, but he still wants to be with me... i haven't told him about JC cause i dont think he could deal with it at the moment... im still there for him... trying to help him get over me... its hard to help someone when u the one that hurt them... im keeping my distance cause i dont want him to slip and try to do something with me... me and JC hang out everyday, text message eachother, we go out, we IM eachother... we just always connected... thats what i always wanted from a BF... just to be around whenever i needed or wanted them... plus he so sweet and funny and yummy and everything i want... he was made just for me... his glasses prscription is the same as mine too, so i could wear his glasses when my contacts are bothering me... lol... now for all the bad news... a week after my b-day, my uncle Ricky died... that shit really hurt... i didn't cry till i actually got to the funeral 2 days later...