Well, I got dumped on April Fools Day and it wasn’t even a joke. Kinda funny though… like a joke. At least it wasn’t on my b-day or valentines day… lol… this whole relationship thing sucks! I’m really about to give up on dating and just have fun with my life. Having a boyfriend is too much drama and work. For some reason once you get a boyfriend, it’s like you can’t do anything without him and when he’s not there, you think of him constantly. It’s weird! He wasn’t always around, so why is it that now that you found him, everything revolves around him. I stopped hanging out with other people to be with “him” on all my free days. He didn’t ask me to give everyone up, it just kinda happened. Now that he’s gone and I’m back with the people I hung out with before him, all I could do is think of him still. It’s kind of pathetic really. But that’s how my brain works… or is it my heart. I still crave him, but I will never let him know. I refuse to give him the power of knowing that I still want him, need him, long for him. I know eventually these feelings will fade, so I’m not stressing it. Its easy to pretend everything’s alright… the hard part is not dying inside in the process. No one needs to know how fragile I really am. Let them believe I’m a strong, independent woman who needs no man to complete me because I’m already whole. Anyway, the motto of this story is “Life’s a Bitch”… lol. That’s what my manager told me before he fired me a few weeks before my man dumped me. Wow… life really is a bitch! Anyway, I’m a big girl! I’ll survive! I don’t need a man! I don’t want a job! Both are things I could get and leave till I’m blue in the face. There are many jobs available and even more men! No biggy… this isn’t my first brake up or job loss and it won’t be my last. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Hey!!! you wanna see how he dumped me? Here's the IM of it happening... Notice how quiet I get at the END... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ JUAN C 514 (4:30:29 PM): wats good sabrina Srifera (4:30:52 PM): nada..... watching yugioh:-P Srifera (4:30:59 PM): whats good with u? JUAN C 514 (4:31:36 PM): nuttin....just sittin here at work waiting to get out Srifera (4:31:59 PM): sounds boring.... no one need their comp fixed? JUAN C 514 (4:32:17 PM): yea....but i fixed them already JUAN C 514 (4:32:24 PM): hence y im just sitting here Srifera (4:33:14 PM): pobrecito...... brake one and refix it JUAN C 514 (4:33:36 PM): lol....as much fun as that sounds....i think i'll pass Srifera (4:34:38 PM): stay bored then Srifera (4:35:13 PM): i gotta start cleaning my room...... chuis coming by today Srifera (4:35:17 PM): :-) JUAN C 514 (4:36:36 PM): cool Srifera (4:36:55 PM): yups..... Srifera (4:37:15 PM): u got ur cuz on friday and now i got mine Srifera (4:37:19 PM): :-P JUAN C 514 (4:39:42 PM): cool Srifera (4:43:13 PM): yups... very cool Srifera (4:43:45 PM): yesterday u sounded all blah when i was talking to u... whats that about? JUAN C 514 (4:47:13 PM): do you want me to be completely honest? Srifera (4:47:42 PM): yups JUAN C 514 (4:47:50 PM): your not going to like it Srifera (4:48:08 PM): ok..... say it anyway JUAN C 514 (4:48:35 PM): i was thinking about when you said that you feel like your 2nd to me JUAN C 514 (4:49:02 PM): and as I thought about it, I was hurt when I realized that your rite JUAN C 514 (4:49:54 PM): I love you more than anyone....with all my heart and being....but rite now, with everything going on, I can't put you first....where you deserve to be JUAN C 514 (4:50:52 PM): And that's why I have to let you go....I can't keep stringing you along because I'm afraid to let you go and/or hope that things will change Srifera (4:51:24 PM): so...... u doing that now? Srifera (4:51:33 PM): on a text message? JUAN C 514 (4:52:02 PM): well, i actually was planning to do it when I got back today.....but you wanted to hear what I had to say Srifera (4:52:12 PM): ok JUAN C 514 (4:53:32 PM): I can imagine you dont really like me very much rite now, and that's understandable.....but just know I love you w/ all I am....and I hope that's the circumstances will change later on Srifera (4:53:49 PM): ok JUAN C 514 (4:54:26 PM): well, I'll let you go....and hopefully we can still chill, at least when you're done hating me.... Srifera (4:54:35 PM): bye ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ FIN... bye papi... bye sweetie