Hey diary people!!! I got some juicy gossip that I gotta keep secret even from you. :-x. It’s about me, so I really can’t talk about it. Let’s just say I should never be allowed to be single cause I go BUCK-WILD!!! LOL… whatevers, can’t change the past. It’s not like I really regret it… I stopped regretting what I do mad long ago. Shit happens for a reason… don’t know what that reason is… but I know there has to be one hidden somewhere… I'm too lazy to look for it though… Anyway, so I’ve been hanging out with my cuz Chui more often… its cool… keeps my brain from frying from the constant thinking. This Monday we going shopping, then to the movies to see "Amityville", then to eat… that’s all we got planned for now… usually we go clubbin together, but my bones hurt… I'm too old… LoL… I so don’t know what to do with myself. It feels like the world is just messing with me to see what I’ll do next. Like a test that I keep failing. No matter how many times I take it. I always end up in the same place, thinking the same thoughts, doing the same things, feeling the same way… its just weird how no matter what I do in my life and what I accomplish; everything always ends in the same way. I guess no matter what I do, I can never be a new ME…