hey humans... so i kinda got over the pissed-off-ness of losing my niece... what helped me was being with my dude, smoking some trees and drinking a little bit... this friday, my dude came by mad late at night/early in the morning... he was in his friend mikey's house and he said that when he closed his eyes to go to sleep, he saw my face... so he called to tell me he was coming, i was like "ok" and he came a couple hours later... his friend lives kinda far... anyway, we chilled in my hallway for a while, then we went to a diner to eat breakfast... it was mad good!!! scrabbled eggs, bacon, sausage, pancakes, hashbrowns, bread with butter, and orange juice... it was so much that we couldn't even eat it all... i brought leftovers home... he was mad sleepy still though cause he didn't sleep for like 2 days... he was gonna leave to his friend mikey's house and i asked if i could go and so we went... we chilled for a bit and then he fell asleep and i just chilled with his friends... it was cool... we watched tv, joked, and then watched a movie... my dude laughed in his sleep... lol... when he woke up, we all smoked some trees and joked some more... then smoked again and i was dazed... they started playing videogames and i fell asleep... they fell asleep around 5AM and my dude woke me up so i could give him room to sleep on the bed... then i set my alarm for 9AM cause i had to go to my other nieces 2 year old birthday party... the next day, saturday, we woke up and chilled a bit with his friends who woke up too... then we left to my house... after we said goodbye at my door, i had to hurry to wrap my nieces present, take a shower, go get my hair done, get dressed, and take the train to penn station to get on the long island rail road... i got to my bros house later then i wanted, but still early... everything happened after i got there... we chilled and took pics and played wiffle ball and eat... i took a whole bunch of pics of my niece... my niece is too young to know what really was going on... when we lit the candle, she couldn't even blow it... it was cute how she tried though... it was icecream cake... mmmmm... then we had her pull the string to the "pinata" and she didn't know what was going on... she took one lollipop and was happy with it... my older bro put her on his lap and opened her presents cause she wouldn't... she just sat there looking bored and just concentrating on her lollipop... it was hilerious... my niece is the cutest thing in the world!!! at the end my older bros wife's parents wanted me to stayover cause it was late, but i didn't want to... they really tried getting me to stay though... i feel special... haha... once i got to the trainstation near my house, i called my dude and talked to him all the walk to my door... my older bro also called to make sure i was alive... when i got home, i put some things in a bag and headed to my dudes house to sleepover... his parents were in DC or something for memorial day weekend... i was mad sleepy and took a shower where my dude talked to me while sitting in the toilet(not using it, just sitting...lol)... then i fell asleep... sometime in the night my dude woke me up cause i was falling off the bed and he moved me to the other side near the wall... then i fell right back to sleep... that sunday when we woke up, i had to keep my dude controlled... he wakes up mad horny and i wake up wanting to watch some cartoons... so he tried and i wouldn't let him and at the end, i got my way... hahaha... no sex for him... lol... am i being mean? i dont know... anyway, i convinced him to come to the movies with me to see "the day after tomorrow"... first we ate at popeyes cause we had an hour and a half b4 the movie started... the movie was hot and i held his hand throughout the whole thing... he loved the movie too... then we ate ICECREAM!!! with SPRINKLES!!! and we walked around for awhile... b4 the movie we had gone to the park to sit for awhile so we could digest the food... there were mad pigeons trying to have sex... the guy pigeons opened there feathers and chased the female pigeons... it was funny... i told my dude that we act just like the pigeons... he chases me and i run... lol... when we got to my house, we chilled in our spot, "the hallway" and my bro and his girl came by... they were back to normal... he wants to get her pregnant again... i told her to go on birth control, even if she has to do it behind his back... we looked through my photo albums... they had an argument over some stupid crap... my younger bro needs to get anger management... i layed with my dude and told him to sing to me... i wanted to drown out the voices of yelling humans... then they got over there argument and we all decided to smoke and go to the movies to see shreck 2... we went to the park and sat on a blanket and smoked... it was cool... like a picnic without food... after that we started walking to go to the movies but ended up going bowling... only me and my bro played, cause my dude and my bros chic didn't want to play... they still had fun cheering us on... my dude got very competitive... he started acting like my coach or something... afterwards he had told me that he acted like this cause he was real good at the game and used to play for money and stuff... after bowling, my bro left with his chic and me and my dude headed home... we went to the chinese place and ate... then we went home and chilled... he apologized for being so bossy in bowling and also said we cant smoke together anymore cause we act completely different... he gets all mellow and want to talk about his feelings and our future and how he loves me and all that other good stuff... i just laugh and laugh and laugh... i could not be serious at all... its not good when he's talking about his feelings and im laughing at him... lol... so now we won't smoke together... no big loss... smoking is bad anyway... hopefully im not pregnant though... i was sleepy, so he went home... smoking knocks me out... then monday i was bored all day... i watched tv, talked on the comp with some people... watched some more tv... it was my cuz's b-day and i called him to scream "HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY"... we talked and joked and all that other good stuff... then around 12AM i went to sleep... about an hour later my dude calls and asked if he could come over and i said "ok" and he came by and we chilled... his uncle had just died and he was sad... he drank some grape liquor and was a little tipsy... i took such a big gulp of the liquor that i had to swollow 3 times... it tasted like old welch juice... we just chilled for a bit and i got him a steak my mom had cooked for me that i didn't eat... i dont like steak... he ate it and asked for a napkin, so i just licked his fingers clean for him... that made him mad horny... i just did it cause i didn't want to go back inside... he talked about how he loved getting his stuff sucked back in the day but surpressed that cause he knows i dont like it... and how in 9 years i gotta do it... thats what he thinks... lol... but after a few hours he went home so i could sleep... he really got deep about how he loves me and doesn't want to lose me and stuff... my dude's a real softy... its cute... well, so im here now... tuesday... watching cartoons and chatting like i usually do... got some bills im about to pay through the comp... i need to start looking for a job b4 i get completely broke... anyway, let me go... over and out... me and my dude a few months back... me with long hair... my big bro and niece...