that makes me soo upset about katie and jouquin. i want everything to be better for you katie i really do. i hiked today at arroyo verde,..yes the place where the mountain lion was we saw some mountain lion paw prints,...cool cool. its really hard to write an entry after reading about that stuff that happened to katie. i feel bitter toward jouquin. and how something so wonderful as life can suck so bad for certain people at times. danny is my friend,..but he keeps asking me to do stuff with him im not sure if he likes me or if we are just friends. i dont like him im not sure about what he thinks. i mean anybody can do stuff with people as just friends but it just seems like he likes me. i dont know i cant even think about this at the moment im so pissed about jouquin having the nerve to hurt someone like katie. i got really dizzy on the hike almost fainted i got to drive ther and everywhere today which rocked i got subway -yum. im mad that i cant go thrift store shopping because my friends are going with out me and i have been really wanting to go. ugh!!!!and i have money damn it makes me soo mad. saw jess for an hour today seemed like 5 minutes though. i need to see katie. it sucks to know that other friends have allready made her feel better and that i havent even seen her for like a week and to know that she cant lean on me since ive been busy. my mom showed me how to macreme which was cool. i got a billy idol tape. maybe me and katie can listen to it when we see eachother,..i hope it is soon! this is my longest entry ever wow. need to see friends soon i am in withdrawel if i dont see some of my friends soon im going to go crazy.