hmmmmmmmmm,...in one of those dazed moods. just kinda- neutral. Today was allright. i still have to do homework which sucks, and i dont get to see my love which sucks, but i saw him today at lunch which was awesome. Friday will be so great if it works out. im clebrating my moms birthday today- at a mexican restaurant-- what am i suppossed to order since im a vegitarian?? i felt really gross today, but Joe always makes me feel pretty. i love being with him, its so great. i need to let go of my sarcastic gaurd though,..i realized today that that's what it is,..a sheild from letting someone in i think. i didnt even know i was doing it. art was ok, my partner finally let me paint but everything has got to be her way- she was being really anal about everything- i didnt think she was like that about things even though my friend told me she was yesterday and i didnt beleive her. i miss Joe alot.When i was riding home i noticed that the gas station's flag was at half mast- i dont know who died but i thought alot about why people only do that when famous people die. it really bugs me- someone could be one of the best people in the world- who was kind, generous, and caring,..and when they die they dont get the honor of having a flag at half mast anywhere- its not like the mcdonalds is something to be proud of having a flag half mast at- its just that i think its sad that others dont realize that other people are dying too. then again,..the flags would be half mast everyday if we tried to recognize everybody. im thinking too much again,...