so the date with joe went great. we just held eachother on the peir, watched the sunset and talked. it was great. i love being with him, even though i get really really nervous, especially when my family is so embarassing. i was too scared to kiss him, but i wouldnt want it to feel forced anyways. i want my first kiss to be really spontaneous, and not like it has to be a certain time or place. but we had alot of fun, and hes such a gentleman. so i went to ikea today, and my back hurt like hell, and my neck was out of wack. now i know what its like to be old,...or pregnant. i have never seen so many women without bras in a store before in my entire life,..it was pretty gross, but i was jealous, i mean i wish i wouldnt have to wear a bra and be able to get away with it. but then again my boobs are huge, so whatever. im supposed to fold clothes today, i hope my mom doesnt notice that im not doing it. my body hurts too much. i really really want to be with joe right now, and not just for sexual reasons, but to feel loved, and just be with him. today i actually felt pretty in a really long time, at least i looked ok. i hate whiners- im going to shut up. i cant wait to see all my friends tomorrow, it will be awesome, especially if joe can go.