im thinking about you, as i sit here at my computer with my wet hair making me cold. i wish you could come up behind me and wrap me up in your warm arms. i wish that i could just have one touch, just one. maybe just touch your face, or your hand. if i could have that one indulgence i would be so much happier. i wish that you could be here to kiss away the tears that i shed because i cant have that one little thing. i wish that you could see my face when you give me a kiss. i dont know why it has to be so hard. i just dont understand. ive thought of so many reasons why it has to be like this but none of them do it any justice. sometimes i wonder if we are ever thinking about eachother, maybe a memory, or a long lost kiss, at the same exact moment. maybe we do it all the time, and we dont know it. maybe we are so connected that our lives are intertwined no matter how many miles we are apart. i wish that just someone knew how much we love eachother, and how strong we are. just one person to talk to, to know our story. we are only together in my dreams. i dream about you being here, and us cuddling. i dream about us living together, and being happy. if i could have one wish it would be to have you here with me. no matter what is going on outside of us, i would be in utter bliss, pure happiness if i could just be in your arms and hear you whisper i love you in my ear. you are my hero, my muse, my dream boy, my inspiration for life. everytime i say i love you, this is what i want you to hear. all of this. its what it means.