so my mom's aunt died- i keep saying that instead of my great aunt because my mom knew her alot better then i did. she was the person she looked up to, her role model. she wanted to be the kind of mother that her aunt was. it really affected me, i wasnt crying for my great aunt that i barely knew but for my mom. my mom had such a rough childhood and her aunt was the one who kept her sane. my mom is going to colorado for the funeral probably. its so scary to see how in one instant your life can change so much. her aunt was married for 58 years. can you imagine being ripped from your soul mate in a second? i knew that she had died because when her husband asked for my mom he wasnt happy- hes ALWAYS happy. it was horrible. After great pain, a formal feeling comes-- The Nerves sit ceremonious, like Tombs-- The stiff Heart questions was it He, that bore, And Yesterday, or Centuries before? The Feet, mechanical, go round-- Of Ground, or Air, or Ought-- A Wooden way Regardless grown, A Quartz contentment, like a stone-- This is the Hour of Lead-- Remembered, if outlived, As Freezing persons recollect the Snow-- First - Chill - then Stupor - then the letting go-- -Emily Dickinson