Joe and I kissed today,...it was wonderful. I'd never done it before, and it was awesome. Except i fucking laughed and it kinda ruined the moment,..i couldn't help myself. i was just so bad at it. i hope that i get better,..i'd hate it if Joe said he loved me,..but hated the way i kissed haha. wow, i am sooo happy. i love Joe so much, and no matter how much i say it i know it will never ever express my feelings for him.