my boyfriend left yesterday. i saw him off to the airport. ive never felt so much pain in my entire life. i dont think i will ever be the same. i feel so drained and defeated. like ive lost a great battle that ive been trying to win for years. im not happy, i dont think i will be for a very long time. i dont know how ill live without being in his arms, or feeling his kisses and being safe with him. just laughing with him, and making him smile. ive never felt such agony. sad doesnt even begin to describe this feeling. im dying of heart ache.