life sucks a lot sometimes. i really do despise life at moments. But then there are those little things that make it all better again for a little while. i just got back from a trip,..went to monterey and pismo. it was fun, we went to the aquarium and went shopping. i came back and got a haircut from my dear friend amanda jane. my hair is a mass of curls. then theres joseph. the love of my life who now lives in philadelphia. i miss him more than anything. its hard only being able to talk on the phone with him, but i am still more in love with him everyday. school starts soon and its going to be so different being a senior, everyone will be doing their own thing and taking shorter classes and all that. im not sure if im going to like it or not. i hate thinking about college and what i want to be or where i want to go. it sucks. i miss some of the friends that i dont talk to much anymore. i dont think im the same person anymore. theres something about me that has changed and i dont like it but i cant do anything about it. i guess that is how life works, and you have to live with it.